My lips are sealed

I sat in a meeting tonight not wanting to share, but knowing that it was probably a really good idea to. I didn't though.  I have been feeling disconnected from a lot of things and people lately. Not much is happening in my life and I feel like there's nothing positive to talk about. I open my mouth and lots of negative pours out. Anyway, I wanted to share about my inability to connect with people in the program and my not having a sponsor and my issues with unemployment. Instead I kept my lips sealed. This is my problem, yet I didn't have the courage to tackle it tonight. I also am tired of complaining. That could just be my excuse. Ugh. And then there's therapy tomorrow..